Sometimes, I wish I could just tie/tape my baby to my boobs.
Lately, I’ve come to accept that there’s just nothing else on Earth that can comfort and feed my baby as effectively as the boob.
It didn’t used to be like this. I mean, when Chichi was first born, she learned to bottle feed before learning to breastfeed. I remember the lactation consultant being concerned that she might not learn how to latch on to the breast due to this. Good thing Chichi turned out to be a champ at breastfeeding.
The first two months or so, we could freely alternate between breast and bottle. This was awesome because hubby could take over feeding duties on the weekends so that I could sleep in, or I could run off for a couple of hours to do a few errands here and there.
Then, Chichi started to resist the bottle. At first, she would just not take in as much from the bottle. Over the course of month or so, she gradually stopped taking the bottle altogether. In fact, she would start crying just seeing the bottle come towards her.
At first, I thought it was because thawed milk didn’t taste as good due to the lipase breaking down the fats in my milk. So I tried pumping, then feeding her the milk. She still wouldn’t take it. Then, we tried different nipples and bottles (Evenflo, Nuk Orthodontics, Avent Natural). She still refused. It got to the point where she would rather cry and be hungry than take the bottle.
So, since then, I’ve been breastfeeding exclusively. She’s been much happier at feeding time, and more content.
When Chichi was 4-5 months old, she started to suck on her thumbs. The first few days, she would happily suck away, and sooth herself to sleep. I would get 8-9 hours of uninterrupted sleep! Heaven!
Then, she started fussing at bedtime, and refusing to suck on her thumb. Hmmm…this is familiar. I tried putting a boob in her mouth, and voila!, instant happy baby. It’s good that I have a way to quiet a fussy baby, but at the same time, I felt I couldn’t just sit there all night with a baby on my boob.
I tried 3 pacifiers, all to no avail. She would shove them right out of her mouth. Occasionally, she would still suck on her own thumb, but she much prefers the real thing. But, you know what? It’s okay! Babies love breasts…it’s warm, it gives them a full belly, smells like mommy, and makes them feel happy and secure. What’s not to love?
One day, I will look back and miss my breastfeeding days. It provides bonding between mommy and baby, and frankly, it makes me feel good to have my baby nuzzled on my chest, gazing at me. So for now, I’m going to enjoy every minute of it. Me, my baby, and the boobie